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I'm auditioning for a singing group tonight. I've been pretty surprised that I haven't felt particularly nervous about it, which is amazing given the level of performance anxiety I get about singing in front of other people. So even though I don't feel nervous, I had a horrible nightmare about it last night. In my nightmare, I was in a room with the director, his assistant and two other people who were auditioning and a couple of regulars. We all did our pitch and range exercises then we did some really basic group singing. I did ok and was feeling pretty confident. Then the director left and his assistant talked to the other two who auditioned and was like "you did great and we want you to stay, etc." Then she said "Did I miss any one?" I'm all excited and waving my hand saying over here, you missed me. Then the asistant looks at her clipboard in confusion and says she doesn't see any note about me and will need to check with the director. Then the director comes in and looks at me and starts saying really mean things about how this group is not a forum for me to showoff and that I have acted compeletly inappropriately and he would never have me in a group. I got angry at him for being a mean bastard and woke up. At least the lack of sleep makes me too tired to be nervous.